noun
1. firm belief in the reliability, truth, ability or strength of someone or something.
verb
1. believe in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of.
That beautiful yet terrifying word up there is the word God gave me for 2016. It’s not a word to describe what my 2016 will be, it’s an action I need to do for the next 12 months and beyond--it's not the noun usage, it's the verb. I must actively trust Him.
TRUST.
Today, one week before getting on a plane and leaving all I know and love for a beautiful and dark Dutch city, the leader of my ministry Skyped me to inform me that my YWAM ministry has been dissolved.
No more YWAM Lighthouse. No more Red Light District specific ministry with YWAM Amsterdam.
TRUST.
She says I should pray and choose another ministry, or do the Evangelism Team if I want to still work with the ladies in the district.
She said, “Our particular ministry has stopped, but the work has not. We are still very active in the district with the Evangelism Team.”
Funny thing is, I didn’t freak out at all.
I was overwhelmed with such an amazing peace.
Why? I originally applied for the Evangelism Team in the first place but settled on The Lighthouse out of fear.
When I started scoping out YWAM Amsterdam last year, I spoke with a couple of staff at the base, one was on the Evangelism Team. According to that staff member, my interests matched well with the Evangelism Team, but I would have to be willing to do other street ministry outside the Red Light District—ministry with the homeless and drug dealers. I would have to be willing to do active street Evangelism several times a week.
That sounded great, but honestly really exhausting. So I said “No” because I didn’t think God could sustain me through that type of ministry and decided to fall back on something familiar.
TRUST.
Now I find myself, one week from flying out, being placed into a ministry I was originally terrified of.
TRUST.
Yet somehow, I know God will sustain me.
Somehow, I know God will give me a genuine LOVE for the streets of Amsterdam and the people I meet there.
Somehow, I know that God will grow me immensely—grow me more than He could if I was at The Lighthouse.
I trust, despite my fears, that He will surround me with the right teammates and friends.
I trust, He will provide in every way—financially, spiritually, emotionally and physically.
I trust, He will grow my heart to love more—to love like Him, and to help me see Amsterdamians through His eyes.
I trust in Him, because I KNOW that he is reliable, true, able and strong.
I trust that trusting Him is the best thing I could ever do.
Join me and trust Him today?
Trust Him to provide your every need?
Trust Him to guide you, lead you, and place you right where you need to be.
And please, pray that I will continue to trust Him too.
Because He is a good Father who gives good gifts to His children.
TRUST.
Jesus, your reliability, truth, ability and strength inspires me to trust you.
Thank you.
Love,
Hanna
The pictures above are from my Boston trip way back in October. Finally got around to showing a couple of the few hundred I took that week ;)
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